I wish I had Infinite Patience. I wish i had Infinite love, and resources to make all whom i love and care about happy beyond comprehension.

But sadly, I am not God. I am limited to what I am capable of doing..

and its a terrible thing, perhaps my greatest hinderence.

I love Sunshine, but i dont know what to do, what to do to make her happy, to show her how much I truly care...

She is going to the Navy...a 4 year trip that I most likely will not even see her during...
What am I to do? I just dont want to be alone, but I know now that i can manage being alone. I dont need anyone anymore, i feel the difference.

I just, want things to work out...But I am not God
I have finite Patience, finite love and resources. I am a miniscule creature of creation..