So it is snowing.

No, I mean, really snowing. I'm talking, a good 8 inches of snow, on top of 2 inches of pure ice, snowing!

Anyway, therefore I am cooped up in my home, bored as always, not knowing if I should write, read, eat or sleep. So I guess I will write and do one of the other three later.

I really wish there were other Muslims living near me. A Masjid would be great, but just to have maybe one other Muslim in this town would suffice. I feel so isolated at times, so alone, and although I have many friends, that I could hang out with and have a good laugh with in a pinch, it doesn't replace that spiritual bond between people of the same faith. Fellowship, that is what I crave.

I even seek out those who are not Muslim, but that are all about serving God, be they Christian or whatever. I just want spiritual connections between the people I am around, and lately, that is becoming increasingly hard to find.

I have a friend whom satisfied that need for fellowship, but as he fell out of touch with God, that part of our friendship faded. I am not going to say it died, because I feel there is hope yet to rekindle that, but for now, it is all but extinguished.

I could try and proselytize, and convert people to Islam, but for one that would be quite selfish of me to do that just for my needs, and two, it is not my place to force people into my way of thinking. My soul yearns for spiritual companionship.

I am to recall the way the prophets must have felt, alone in their cause, and even hated and abused for their belief. At least I do not have is so bad, and yet, I sometimes wish I have such opposition, because for one, it would build my own faith, and two, I would not feel so ignored.

I think that gets to me to, being ignored. I know people talk about me. Me, the strange Muslim boy, whom they all ignore and talk about later on. I want interaction, even if it is negative interaction. How am I to connect, when there is nothing to connect to.

Perhaps I am just contracting Cabin Fever. Suppose I will get over it once the snow melts...