I hate wanting to conform to a certain set belief system, because who Am i to say that any of them are right?

How do Christians know they are right? Or Jews, or Muslims? Do they Pray, is it logistical, or are they all just blind?

Perhaps ones beliefs need to evolve, perhaps "belief" is not something to be set into stone...Or into writing at all.

Right now, I am putting a hold on this whole Jew thing. I agree with almost everything Judaism teaches.. But i can say the same about almost any "religion".
I want to think that Islam, Judaism, Christianity, Buddhism... Some sort of standard set of faith is true. But there are contradictions within them all. And although there are "explanations" to all these contradictions, who's to say that just because the are contradictions, means that they arent true?

Truth, my friends, is what I am getting at. What is the Truth?

I dont know, and i dont think its mankind's right to know.

We are lab mice, all given a chance to find the cheese. We dont know HOW to get to the cheese, or how we got there if we ever do get to the cheese. As Rats, all we know is that we want the cheese, its somewhere in the box because we smell it, and that we will do what we can to get it.

But the thing is, we are blind rats. We dont know when we are near the cheese, we smell it, it could be in the box, it might not be in the box at all, but just an oder. Perhaps GATNE just took the cheese out long ago, to confuse us..

Who knows, who's to say?

I want a set base of beliefs. I need discipline and a strict way of Faith. Judaism is strict, but I know in my heart now that its not the whole story.

And The Trinity doesnt make any since at all to me. Seems like a bunch of mystical garbage that came into effect later to explain people's notions of how Jesus was God incarnate..

Islam is pretty close I think, but things with it I whole heartedly disagree with..

...but there we go again, Who am I to say what GATNE says is right for us? Its fear of what GATNE can do to me... thats what keeps me searching for the Truth... That everprevalent fear....

I'm sleepy, and My sunshine hasnt called me back... :(