Im done, ok.

I love you, and I thank you for everything you have ever done, or will ever do for me, but i need to be ME, i need to think for myself, and not look up to you as some sort of revelatory Prophet sent from above to guide me, because you too need guidance (and God knows Im not the one to give it.)

I have been a Pagan, and Christian, lives like a Jew, and Lived like nothing for so long, under your advisment, that I dont know anything anymore. I thank you for telling me to go North, and not South, and all the knowledge i hold in my fleshy brain given from you to me.

But im not going to do it anymore. You are my best friend, and i respect you, i love you as such, and i understand everything you have done, you do to help, i know this. But right now, i dont want that help. I feel like Im being babied and led on "your" path. I need to go on "my" path. No matter where that leads me. You don't know the True path, and neither do I. And Yes, perhaps you are closer to it than I am, but who knows? No one does.

I want you to just be my friend, on this plane of existance, and let me worry about my soul. For the last two years (or close to it) I have been following what you have led me, even though it may not seem that way. Yeah, ive pissed you off with the Jew thing, and so many other things, but I would have never ventured into those realms had it not been because of you. I am a Monotheist because of you, thank Yahweh, Allah, El Shaddai, God, whatever...

You have done so much for me, but you dont need to keep going. Like a kid on a Bike, you dont have to be right there holding the bike as the boy peddles. Let me go man, seriously

let me make my own mistakes, let me chart my own path. Let me hurt myself, and save myself, without regard.

And dont get pissed off or upset that about what I do either.

Let me be my own spiritual vessel....